(Big Basin Redwoods State Park, November 2012)
"for one minute please, stand here in silence and look at the sky
and contemplate how awesome life can be"
i really love blogging, its a way of expressing the mess thats in your head,
i always thought that my posts were organised as therapy sessions,
in order to reduce my visits to my psychiatrist.
So, bro's off to Iraq, i'll be off to somewhere next year too,
feels weird being accepted to loads of unis and having to choose.
having a boyfriend and friends make that choice even harder,
everything seems too twisted to be explained, once again.
but you just cant say no to an Ivy League
because you areinto the sick parties of south coast unis.
too many white lies and white lines, thats how my life can be described.
i miss my brother, i really really miss him, and i lied to him, the
only person that really cares about how im doin, if im alive, inside.
its hard coming out and he knows that, and he has to accept
that some things take time, and that time changes you, wise owl.
meow, chea