"All i want is to explore this world, to ignore the brutality of reality,
to leave my footprints and wander, it that abnormality?"
Here's the birthday girl, yesterday was the first of my last teenage ones.
Woke up late enough to have breakfast prepared and my beloved best friend
waiting for me downstairs, my life was complete. My "suicide policeman" was there.
And as much as he is concerned, he is the only one who stayed
the longest by my side in my twisted, messed-up world.
the longest by my side in my twisted, messed-up world.
Lunch with my brothers, brother and best friend, and my sister who came down here just for that.
And then a terrific night followed, you know, full of "touch my ding ding dong"
and one of those "i love you" things that paralyze me.
So, what should i do now? First thought was, i need to cut people out more.
But yeah, big dillema here. I dont wanna end up hurting you.
Allie, xx.
